What would life look like if Humans existed without the knotted veil of the Ego over-layed, woven throughout, our perceptual awareness?
I picture my own Ego as a thick heavy leather cloak, multi-layered, waterproof, worn, and sturdy. In moments of consciously witnessing my multi-dimensionality, I see my Soul shrugging off this cloak and I can easily travel between lifetimes, dimensions, and parallel universes. So this begs the question – what would it take for me to live without this ego-cloak at all times?
As I feel into this ego-free existence, thoughts start swirling. Would I ever dress up nicely again? Would I even wear clothes? Would I still be able to remain (safe and) integrated within society, or would I be ostracised for being too weird, too unconventional, too “out there”? Now I’m having flashbacks to the Witch Hunts! What about my values? Without the Ego to distract me would I abide by my values completely as my No. 1 priority in life? And shoot, now I feel bad that I don’t prioritize my values more consistently!
Does this voice remind you of anyone?
And when I go deeper, I see this possible reality as one of total transparency. Of living fearlessly, in complete acceptance, trust, and surrender to all that is. Confidence without arrogance, and humility without insecurity.
So what is the Ego?
The Ego is what we identify with, how we identify ourselves, and what our judgments, attachments, and expectations filter through. It is paradoxical whack-a-mole that leaves behind a trail of emotional reactions. For example, think of the last time you lashed out in anger, frustration, jealousy, or blame. Did you then follow that same outburst by turning that blame onto yourself? In self-reflection, did you swing from arrogance and self-righteousness to berating, judging, and punishing yourself for the outburst? And even the word “your-self” – like Gollum and his ring – “My Precious. MY PRECIOUS!” – does it feel a bit like that at times as you jump to protect and defend who you are/what you are at the first sniff of judgment, misunderstanding, or accusation? Yikes – why are we so sensitive to other people’s perceptions of us? Do we not know ourselves better?
It is said that before the Ego program was installed, Humans had a rootedness in the depths of their beings, unconsciously aware of their Divinity and connection with each other, with nature, and all that is. It was never even a thought, that of separation. Everything existed in total harmony. No resistance, no confusion, no doubt, no shame, and no core wounds of abandonment or rejection. In time, however, thought came in via Ego and we moved more and more into our minds and away from our rooted connection with Oneness.
And now as Humanity comes full circle we return to our deep knowing and rootedness in ourselves, but this time, consciously knowing of our connectedness with the One. Thus, we can be grateful for the Ego’s teachings as we are gifted to see objectively that the Ego is a part of the evolutionary process of our species.
So how can we apply this and start making our way back to conscious Oneness? What will it take to slip off the heavy leather cloak?
We can start by observing our thoughts/Monkey Mind, and begin discerning the different energy behind our thought processes. Your Ego is frenetic, contradictory, likes to blame, judge, and attach meaning to things. If ever you are blaming, or being harsh on yourself with self-talk, self-judgment, and self-punishment, take a step back and try the following:
Say to your Ego:
“I hear you Ego, thank you for your perspective. Mhmm, I’m even going to write that down. Yes, I know it’s important… OK Ego, it’s the Soul’s turn to chime in now so we can hear their perspective too. Go ahead, my Soul.” And listen.
Your Soul will ALWAYS come through with compassion, love, understanding, humility, and grace. It will feel like a warm bath on a cold day, kitten cuddles, or a hug from your favorite person. You will be instantly soothed, like a baby with a bottle, as you are held and supported like the Divine Child that you are. Just because we are programmed to jump to self-punishment and negative thinking first, doesn’t mean it’s the right train of thought.
It gets to be different now. We get to be different.
This is about awareness and understanding your Ego, and communicating with it as the insane Great Aunt or Uncle that it is. And now, one by one, thousand by thousand, humanity gets to basque in the conscious knowledge of our true Oneness with all that Is… Root down deeply now my loves like the Cosmic Children that you are. Here, within your being, you are wholly safe and perfectly whole.
