Dear Deziree,
I was with my husband for 14 years and married for 8 of them. He continually cheated on me, and when I finally did leave, he refused to provide financial support for the kids which left us in a bad situation. I have always been spiritual, and my grandmother always told me I was special. I began having visions on and off in my early 20’s through what I call vivid dreams. I consider myself an introvert because I pick up on others energy. I am a Scorpio which makes me highly intuitive. My question is, how do I figure out what my gifts are and how do I fine tune to them? I want to walk into my spiritual journey but I am confused as to my purpose and gifts. It feels as though I am scattered. Please, help!
~’Not Understanding’
Dear ‘Not Understanding’,
After reading this, I can understand why you feel “scattered”. My first question to you would be, why did you stay and allow this behavior with your husband for so long? In order to find your purpose, I believe you must look at the areas in your life that need attention and healing first. When reflecting on your past and accepting your role in it (this means being totally honest with yourself), you can begin to change the unhealthy aspects of your life. Awareness is the first step!
As you heal on a soul level, your gifts will become more apparent. They have always been there ready to be accessed and used for the greater good. When you peel away the layers, your intuition will become more apparent, that is because you’re doing the work to learn your soul lessons. The connection with your soul is the beginning of you finding your purpose. I find that whatever it is, that you had to heal (lessons/mastery), it is usually involved in your soul’s purpose. Somehow you will use your knowledge and wisdom to be in service to others.
I feel intuitively that you may have spent too much time in solitude and that the Ego has kept you in a place of fear, guilt and possibly talked you right out of trusting your spiritual gifts. That is why you feel scattered. My guides tell me to encourage you to find helpful people who can help you with this process of healing from the past. I worked with a very good therapist when I divorced who helped me see and understand the thread that kept me in an unhealthy marriage for as long as I did.
When I decided I needed healing on a soul level, I sought out Spiritual teachers who helped me with understanding my soul and how to connect with it by opening up my gifts. Ask your Angels to guide you to who and where you will meet the appropriate people to assist you on this part of your journey. Be open to listening to where they guide you! Learn from the past, take the lessons with you and forgive all of it! Best wishes to you and many blessings!
Be Extraordinary,
Kimberly Deziree
The intention of Dear Deziree is to use the intuitive gifts of Kimberly Deziree to give you guidance regarding your spiritual business. As with EVERYTHING in life, we need to take 100% responsibility for ourselves. Her response is meant to give you guidance, but ultimately you are responsible for you. Enjoy!
