Dear Deziree,
I feel that I have been prepared for a specific purpose here on earth, one that I chose to come here to complete, asked of me by the Creators. I came here to love others and assist with the universal spiritual shift.
I feel people are fighting the shift and because they are not ready for the message, they lash out at me. They are holding on so tight to the illusions of this world they, “kill the messenger” so to speak. I am being wounded over and over again by people and it really hurts. I feel these things so deeply and I just do not want to be injured by people. It makes me scared to even touch people anymore.
I am getting better at putting up boundaries and leaving these situations, but I need to learn how not to engage in them at all. I feel sucked into these situations sometimes out of a need to protect and honor my sacred space. I know that I am not ok with being mistreated or talked down to because I have a super fragile heart and get hurt by people lashing out at me. I literally am suffering. I have struggled with this honestly and know that today I need to work through it. I need help with this, what would you suggest?
~ 1 Angel Ginger
Dear 1 Angel Ginger,
Thank you for writing in! I agree, you are here to assist others with the “Universal Spiritual Shift”, however before you can help others, you must help yourself first. My intuition is telling me that you have never felt “Heard” by other people, resulting in the belief that you see yourself small and insignificant and that what you have to say is unimportant.
This wounding internally has made you super sensitive when you feel unheard, your “Ego” self then tells you that you’re being rejected which leads you into believing you’re wounded physically. Actually, your heart is really hurting from the original wound of never feeling heard. When your heart is hurting it definitely can feel physical.
You are attracting these people and situations because energetically your original wound is screaming to be addressed. As long as your core belief is “I’m not heard”, your soul will continue to line up people and situations to re-enforce this belief you carry internally. Each time you don’t address this belief of “I’m not heard”, not only is your “Ego” confirming this, but you’re adding layer upon layer to this belief which in turn is causing anger and frustration.
So let’s address the part where you say “They try to kill the messenger”. My feeling is that when you try to approach people about the shift, your choosing people who are not open to hearing what you have to say because energetically they match the vibration of the people who you believed didn’t hear you in the first place from the original wounding. Like attracts Like. Your blocked negative imprint is sending out the signal and the universe is responding with a match.
You are attracting these people hoping to have the different outcome of not feeling heard. Each time this pattern continues you’re becoming angrier and I believe you’re approaching these people with the core belief that you won’t be heard. Then, you come on too strong while trying to convince them to wake up to the shift and when they don’t respond the way you like, you then feel unheard, rejected, angry etc. The idea of setting boundaries is your soul’s way of protecting your heart.
I hope you have a better understanding now of what’s been taking place and how a cycle was created. My hope for you would be to lighten up a bit, don’t worry about waking others up so much but rather focus on your healing by going back to the where you first felt unheard. This is where the seed was planted, then rooted in a belief about yourself and the emotions followed.
No matter what happened back then, know that it just happened and it doesn’t have to keep happening now. Believe that you matter, are significant and most important, that you do have a lot to offer the world and many will want to hear what you have to say. It’s your core belief that needs shifting in how you see yourself. Now get to work and find that seed!
A great book I read that helped me with understanding this stuff was called, Soul Contracts written by, Danielle MacKinnon. I hope this helps! Keep me posted on your progress. Hugs!
Be Extraordinary,
Kimberly Deziree
The intention of Dear Deziree is to use the intuitive gifts of Kimberly Deziree to give you guidance regarding your spiritual business. As with EVERYTHING in life, we need to take 100% responsibility for ourselves. Her response is meant to give you guidance, but ultimately you are responsible for you. Enjoy!
