About a year ago, I hit a wall.
On the outside, everything looked just great: I had just signed a couple new clients, was celebrating my biggest months yet in my coaching business, and was right on track for my best year to date.
On the inside, however, things looked very different. Even though I had every reason to rejoice, I felt a painful inner emptiness that took away all my motivation to continue on this journey.
It wasn’t just that I was exhausted from my most recent launch. Yes, I had been working a lot! But something inside of me was telling me that there was more.
I recognized this dreadful feeling of inner emptiness from before. I had felt exactly the same way about a year after starting my first business.
Back then, I was a freelance copywriter and content editor working for corporate clients.
Within a year, I had rapidly built a hugely successful business I had every reason to be proud of. I had been able to replace my corporate income almost seamlessly after quitting my job, was fully booked with clients who loved my work, my blog was getting 15,000 visits every month, and I was known as the go-to expert in my niche.
Yet, the truth was that I didn’t feel nearly as happy, successful and free as I pretended.
At first, I thought I simply wanted more time freedom so I could bring more of my own creative ideas to life and spend more time traveling the world. I even started setting up some passive income streams as a first step in that direction.
But no matter what I did, the inner emptiness persisted.
It wasn’t until I dared to look deeper that I finally found the answers I was seeking:
I discovered that what I was really looking for was a sense of purpose that freelancing for corporate companies simply couldn’t give me.
That was the beginning of my spiritual awakening.
Things unfolded rapidly from there: I decided to take three weeks off—three weeks in which I’d dedicate my entire time to doing only what my soul was calling me to explore.
Back then, that meant developing my intuitive gifts, communicating with the angels and other beings from the unseen realms, and starting a blog about angels and spirituality.
These three weeks changed my life!
Not only did I feel more joyful, free and alive than I had ever been. My new found passion quickly turned into an entirely new career. I also finally found the courage to leave an unhealthy relationship I had been stuck in for way too long, began to travel more, and eventually moved from Switzerland to my dream home in BC, Canada.
I never looked back!
Anyway, last year everything came full circle.
After going through a period of recovering from a series of traumatic events, I had lost touch with myself, my inner guidance and truth, and without realizing it, I had disconnected from my purpose so much I no longer knew who I was or what I wanted.
I had allowed fear to steer me away from my path.
And while all the work I had put into my business was paying off financially, I felt as though I was selling my soul.
Now, finally, I had some space to breathe. I had time to slow down, take stock, and really listen to what my inner voice was telling me.
And that’s when the depression hit.
The good news: Through this experience, I finally found myself again. Finally, I was asking the right questions. I wanted to know who I really was and what would truly bring me joy. And it didn’t take me long to find those answers once I dared to ask.
As a result, I finally gave myself permission to go after the things that truly stirred my excitement:
I redid my website and offers, started a podcast, and tried out a lot of new things to connect with my passion even more deeply.
And even though embracing a fresh start isn’t always easy, I’m so grateful I listened to my soul.
If there’s one thing I’ve learned, it’s this: Always trust yourself! If you’re not happy, pay attention. Dare to ask questions. And once the inspiration comes, don’t be afraid to take action. It’ll be worth it, I promise!
After all,
“No amount of security is worth the suffering of a mediocre life chained to a routine that has killed your dreams.” ~ Maya Mendoza
